Pride Stickers

I received FOUR Pride Sitckers this month.

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Writing, Rather the Lack Thereof

I have challenged myself to try to write at least 800 words a day. I really want to write 1,000 words a day, but 800 seemed more obtainable with my schedule. I have found it hard to do. The most I have written in one day is 836 words. That was a combination of writing

I am having a hard time trying to find time to write. I have a crazy schedule and it does not afford me much time to get into a continuous stream of writing. I get up at 6 AM to take my husband to work. He has to be there at 8 AM. I don't have to be at work until 9 AM. Well, there is an hour that I have to kill, but I don't have a quiet spot where I can write. When I do find a spot, I only have 15 or 20 minutes to write. Once I get into a flow, it's time to go.

I work from 9-5 with a half hour lunch, so I can't find much time to write during that time.

On most days, after work, I have to take my husband to school. So, I am still going. When I do stop running, I am so tired that I don't feel like looking at a computer, much less writing anything.

When I do put fingers to keyboard to write, the words flow. It's just trying to get my fingers to the keyboard. It's hard to start, knowing that at any moment I may get interrupted and have to stop writing. I am trying to write something everyday, even if it is only a journal entry.

I am going to do it. I can't wait until the summer though; I will so much free time that I should be able to write like crazy. I am speaking that, so it will be. :)

Enduring to the End

Have you ever been waiting on something to happen? Have you ever been waiting to be delivered from a situation? Endurance, that is what it takes to last. It seems as if this current generation does not have any endurance. Endurance is the fact or power of enduring or bearing pain, hardships, and more. It is also defined as the ability or strength to continue or last, despite fatigue, stress, or other adverse conditions; stamina.

I am waiting on God to deliver me from a situation. It has been a hard fought journey and I haven't always made the journey easy. It seems like it is taking forever. I have always prayed, Lord help me get through this. I don't like praying Lord; get me out of this now, because that means I will have to go through it again. I am waiting patiently to be delivered. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel now. It is a very dim light, but I can see it.

To endure, takes a certain mind set. You have to determine in your mind that you are going to endure. You also need to have it settled in your spirit that you are going to endure. The fleshly man always wants to quit and give up. But, if your spirit man is settled, then you can endure.

It gets hard time, waiting on God. I have devised a set of questions that help me to wait on God...
* Can I do anything to fix the problem?
* If I try and fix the problem, will I make things worse?
Once I answer these two questions, then I go from there. If I can fix, then I fix it. If I can't fix it, then I tell myself I have to wait on God. That's where the hard part comes in.

For most of my life, I heard the older saints say, "He (God) may not some when you want Him, but He is always on time." I never understood it until recent years. We always want God to come at the moment that we ask Him, but that is not always the right time. When God does appear, He always appears right before it is the last moment. Then the saying rings true.

I am still holding on and waiting for my change to come. There have been moments when I thought about acting a fool and quitting, but I have not done that. It is taking everything in me to endure.

I have the strength to continue or last, despite fatigue, stress, or other adverse conditions.

Frustrations

Sometimes, life can be so frustrating. Crazy things happen. I mean crazy things that don't make any sense. I have had things happen to me that I can't even make up. Stuff that just doesn't make sense.

One day, I woke up feeling fine. There was nothing wrong with me. All of a sudden out of the blue, I get diarrhea. I had not eaten anything. I had not drunk anything. I just got sick. I still have yet to figure that day out. Things went downhill after that. That happened like 5 years ago. I remember it to this day. That's the kind of crazy stuff that frustrates me.

When I get frustrated, I get irritated. I mean everything irritates me. It seems like everything goes crazy when I get frustrated. Everything moves slower. People seem to act crazier. Traffic seems to be crazy. Ugh!

This is just irritatingly frustrating.

Gossiping Thoughts

I am currently working on a series of short stories entitled, Gossip. I was just thinking about gossip as I typed up one of the stories. It is amazing how quickly a Christian can get caught up into gossip. I know from experience.

I did not grow up in a gossiping household. We did not do taht. Even now, my mother is the last person to know any kind of gossip. Once it gets to her, it is usually 6 months old. We did not have a gossiping spirit at our church either.

At one of my more recent church homes, I became caught up in gossiping. It was easy to do because the pastor has a gossiping spirit, and the whole church has that same spirit, but they call it "SHARING INFORMATION." That's a load of bull because it is flat out talkign about people.

My brother and I happen to know some people, who know some people, who know some more important people. So, we have access to some of the top gossip about well known people in the religious arena. My brother and I got caught up into gossiping with the pastor. We were the ones who verified any gossip that he heard. We got deep into it, too.

In all honesty, it was fun being the one who knew the gossip. I ain't even gonna lie. That was a rush, to have people coming up to me and saying, "Is it true, what I heard about SO IN SO?" It felt good. (Sin is fun and it feels good for awhile.)

Things turned bad when my brother and I were the ones on the receiving end of the gossip. (Read a little about that here.) It is a lot more fun telling the gossip than it is being the one who talked about. Lord, have mercy.

Now, I am no longer into gossiping. I have to pray though, because it is hard to resist wanting to know more when someone says, "Have you heard what happened to SO IN SO?" It takes a lot to not say, "What happened?"

Be careful what you say about others. Someone may end up talking about you.

Pride Stickers

I am setting goals for myself this year to write a certain amount of words each day. If I reach my daily goal, I will place a pride sticker on my laptop for that day.

I can receive multiple stickers for each day if I write over the daily goal.

I love getting stickers on my computer.