Today, I feel... excited, nervous, shocked, and crazy. We had a fire alarm at the school today. It was for real. Someone had burned some popcorn.
Today, I thought about... something at the school being on fire.
Today, I prayed... Lord, thank You that everyone got out of the building safely.
Happy Birthday, Mama!
This is the personal diary of deartra d. Boone, where she posts her current thoughts, feelings, interests, and other things as needed. Everything that is written here, is In HER Own Voice!
10.31.2007
Halloween Is Here!
Today was so crazy. We had a fire alarm. It wasn't a drill either. It was for real. My class was about to go outside. All of a sudden, the fire alarm started screeching. I looked at the other teacher and said, "Are we scheduled to have a fire drill today?" She said, "No. It may just be a surprise one." I wasn't sure about that. We are always told about fire drills.
The kids got in line quickly and went outside without any trouble. The last two times that we had drills, several kids joked around and got into trouble. No one acted out this time. I think they realized something had to be up because they hadn't been told that we were having a fire drill.
We were outside for awhile. Two fire trucks and an ambulance came out to the school. It was kind of cool.
When we finally found out what had started the fire, we were all laughing. One of the teachers had burned some popcorn. She put the bag in a sink full of water and the steam caused the room to fill with smoke. The smoke set off the smoke detectors. The fire department had to come out and over ride the fire alarm.
They had to open the doors and turn fans on in the hallway to get the burn smell out of the school. It was crazy.
Someone was up to some Halloween trickery!
The kids got in line quickly and went outside without any trouble. The last two times that we had drills, several kids joked around and got into trouble. No one acted out this time. I think they realized something had to be up because they hadn't been told that we were having a fire drill.
We were outside for awhile. Two fire trucks and an ambulance came out to the school. It was kind of cool.
When we finally found out what had started the fire, we were all laughing. One of the teachers had burned some popcorn. She put the bag in a sink full of water and the steam caused the room to fill with smoke. The smoke set off the smoke detectors. The fire department had to come out and over ride the fire alarm.
They had to open the doors and turn fans on in the hallway to get the burn smell out of the school. It was crazy.
Someone was up to some Halloween trickery!
10.30.2007
Today
Today, I feel... happy. I finished my NaNo Icons.
Today, I thought about... my NaNo Novel. It is almost time to go there.
Today, I prayed... Lord, let me be a good example.
Today, I thought about... my NaNo Novel. It is almost time to go there.
Today, I prayed... Lord, let me be a good example.
10.29.2007
Today
Today, I feel... excited. I have finished my out line for my NaNoWriMo Novel.
Today, I thought about... my NaNo Novel.
Today, I prayed... that my husband will make the grades in school that he wants to make.
Today, I thought about... my NaNo Novel.
Today, I prayed... that my husband will make the grades in school that he wants to make.
Pumpkin Patch
We (my class) went to the pumpkin patch today. I am tired like crazy. I didn't realize that it would be this tiring. I am not even sure what I did to make me this tired. I got in one of the bounce houses with a student, but I can't figure out why that made me so tired. Oh well. It was fun.
The kids wanted me to take Abigail with us. When I looked up, Abigail was laying on the ground and the person who had her, was running off somewhere else. I ended up holding her for the rest of the day.
The kids ended up taking a good nap. They were all tired and hungry when we got back to the room. That was cool with me.
That was my first time going to a pumpkin patch. It was fun. There weren't that many pumpkins there though since we went on the last few days of the thing. It was still cool.
The kids wanted me to take Abigail with us. When I looked up, Abigail was laying on the ground and the person who had her, was running off somewhere else. I ended up holding her for the rest of the day.
The kids ended up taking a good nap. They were all tired and hungry when we got back to the room. That was cool with me.
That was my first time going to a pumpkin patch. It was fun. There weren't that many pumpkins there though since we went on the last few days of the thing. It was still cool.
10.28.2007
Today
Today, I feel... bewildered.
Today, I thought about... how much I don't feel like I am a part of my church and I have no one to talk to face to face.
Today, I prayed... Lord, help me to be able to go to church more often and to fellowship with my church family more often.
Today, I thought about... how much I don't feel like I am a part of my church and I have no one to talk to face to face.
Today, I prayed... Lord, help me to be able to go to church more often and to fellowship with my church family more often.
Lonely In Lewisville
I have always battled with feeling lonely and having "no friends". It is easy for me to feel lonely because I am a loner. I have a hard time making friends, too. I have made a few friends on my own, but most of the friends I have made have been through my brother. A lot of the friends I made through him I can't tell you where they are. That's a whole nother story for another time.
These days, I am feeling so lonely. My family is far away. My friends are in the area, but it is a 30 minute or so drive. I can rarely get them to come out here, even for special occasions. I get sick of having to be the one to travel to see them. I am usually the one who calls and then folk get upset with me for not calling more often. Its like, "Can't you call me?"
Anyway, I am lonely. I don't get to fellowship with the people at church. A few of the ladies at church know who I am, but it still ain't the same. I don't feel like I have anyone who cares about me, enough to check on me. I don't have a mother figure, a sister, or anything. Man, I miss my family. I hate being here like this. I can't hang out with anyone. Almost everything I do, I have to do it by myself. I get so sick of doing stuff by myself. I can't even call anyone to come pick me up and go somewhere. I don't know anybody around here like that. I can barely call somebody to give me a ride to church. That's very disheartening. I wanna go to church and stuff, but I don't have a way all the time.
The people at school make me feel so left out at times. A lot of them go to the same church, so they are always talking about stuff that goes on at their church. I don't have a lot in common with the teachers from my class. I try to "be apart of the group," but it still ain't what I need. I am probably making a bigger deal about stuff than I need to. Although, I know that they know each others families. Yet again, I am left out of "the group." How is it that I am never able to get "my family" to be a part of my professional life? I still ain't figured that one out yet. I got a feeling that when things clear up, it will be the same. But that's the way things are in my life.
At the Fall Festival, they had their families at the festival. They had friends to work their station with. Why did I end up at a station by myself? On top of that, it was hard getting people to come be a part of my station. I had the music station. People were supposed to dance. It was like pulling teeth to get those kids to come dance.
I hate being me sometimes. Why I gotta be so shy?
I hate not being able to fellowship at church like I want to. That's all I have. But, I can't fellowship right now. I know that it is going to change one of these. It's just so hard right now. I am so tired of feeling alienated and out in the wilderness. Longing for a motherly hug from one of the church ladies is getting old. I know all I have to do is wait for a change. Although, I am not sure how much things will change. I appreciate the moments that I can get from time to time. Then it gets even harder because those moments make me want more moments like that.
Westside is that kind of church, but you have to be the one to make yourself available. The church is so big that people don't particularly notice you unless you make yourself available. I hate big churches for that very reason. At least at small churches, it is easier for people to notice you. I can't stand feeling lost in the crowd.
I get so frustrated when opportunities to fellowship are passed up for no apparent reason. I can't even understand it. I ask for a reason, but I don't get one. That makes things even worse. I still ain't figured out why we couldn't fellowship this afternoon. There wasn't any reason. There is no school. We aren't doing anything other than goofing around. The goofing around could have been postponed for 30 minutes. I wish I knew the reason, maybe then I wouldn't feel so let down.
I have prayed about it. I will keep praying about it. I will have to keep waiting. Until then, I guess I will keep making up people in my head to be my friends. That's some mess. Maybe that's what makes me such a good writer, I make up all of my friends.
Recently, I found out that someone that I am close to is getting a divorce from her husband. I knew the husband first. I am still adjusting to that news. Then I heard that the woman cheated on the husband. How am I supposed to process that kind of information? The woman is my girl. I am close to her. She is the closet thing to a best friend that I have. I haven't asked her about any of this yet. I don't even want to ask her. If she says that it is true, I will be totally crushed. I can't even begin to figure out how to deal with this. If this ain't about some craziness.
Yes, I have a husband, but I need to fellowship with some women every now and then. Girl power rules.
I am going to go to bed now. I am all cried out.
Lord, help me to not feel so lonely. I know that I am not alone, but I still feel so disconnected and alone. Work out my situation so that I can fellowship with my church family more. Amen.
These days, I am feeling so lonely. My family is far away. My friends are in the area, but it is a 30 minute or so drive. I can rarely get them to come out here, even for special occasions. I get sick of having to be the one to travel to see them. I am usually the one who calls and then folk get upset with me for not calling more often. Its like, "Can't you call me?"
Anyway, I am lonely. I don't get to fellowship with the people at church. A few of the ladies at church know who I am, but it still ain't the same. I don't feel like I have anyone who cares about me, enough to check on me. I don't have a mother figure, a sister, or anything. Man, I miss my family. I hate being here like this. I can't hang out with anyone. Almost everything I do, I have to do it by myself. I get so sick of doing stuff by myself. I can't even call anyone to come pick me up and go somewhere. I don't know anybody around here like that. I can barely call somebody to give me a ride to church. That's very disheartening. I wanna go to church and stuff, but I don't have a way all the time.
The people at school make me feel so left out at times. A lot of them go to the same church, so they are always talking about stuff that goes on at their church. I don't have a lot in common with the teachers from my class. I try to "be apart of the group," but it still ain't what I need. I am probably making a bigger deal about stuff than I need to. Although, I know that they know each others families. Yet again, I am left out of "the group." How is it that I am never able to get "my family" to be a part of my professional life? I still ain't figured that one out yet. I got a feeling that when things clear up, it will be the same. But that's the way things are in my life.
At the Fall Festival, they had their families at the festival. They had friends to work their station with. Why did I end up at a station by myself? On top of that, it was hard getting people to come be a part of my station. I had the music station. People were supposed to dance. It was like pulling teeth to get those kids to come dance.
I hate being me sometimes. Why I gotta be so shy?
I hate not being able to fellowship at church like I want to. That's all I have. But, I can't fellowship right now. I know that it is going to change one of these. It's just so hard right now. I am so tired of feeling alienated and out in the wilderness. Longing for a motherly hug from one of the church ladies is getting old. I know all I have to do is wait for a change. Although, I am not sure how much things will change. I appreciate the moments that I can get from time to time. Then it gets even harder because those moments make me want more moments like that.
Westside is that kind of church, but you have to be the one to make yourself available. The church is so big that people don't particularly notice you unless you make yourself available. I hate big churches for that very reason. At least at small churches, it is easier for people to notice you. I can't stand feeling lost in the crowd.
I get so frustrated when opportunities to fellowship are passed up for no apparent reason. I can't even understand it. I ask for a reason, but I don't get one. That makes things even worse. I still ain't figured out why we couldn't fellowship this afternoon. There wasn't any reason. There is no school. We aren't doing anything other than goofing around. The goofing around could have been postponed for 30 minutes. I wish I knew the reason, maybe then I wouldn't feel so let down.
I have prayed about it. I will keep praying about it. I will have to keep waiting. Until then, I guess I will keep making up people in my head to be my friends. That's some mess. Maybe that's what makes me such a good writer, I make up all of my friends.
Recently, I found out that someone that I am close to is getting a divorce from her husband. I knew the husband first. I am still adjusting to that news. Then I heard that the woman cheated on the husband. How am I supposed to process that kind of information? The woman is my girl. I am close to her. She is the closet thing to a best friend that I have. I haven't asked her about any of this yet. I don't even want to ask her. If she says that it is true, I will be totally crushed. I can't even begin to figure out how to deal with this. If this ain't about some craziness.
Yes, I have a husband, but I need to fellowship with some women every now and then. Girl power rules.
I am going to go to bed now. I am all cried out.
Lord, help me to not feel so lonely. I know that I am not alone, but I still feel so disconnected and alone. Work out my situation so that I can fellowship with my church family more. Amen.
This Week...
I didn't finish my goals for last week again. I am going to have to stop doing that.
Here are my goals for next week…
- Work on my outline. By 10/29.
- Finish my NaNo Icons for this year. By 10/30.
- Put NaNo Images for characters and places on the blog. By 10/30.
- Take the candy to the church for the Fall Festival. By 10/31.
- Begin NaNoWriMo. On 11/01/07.
- Write between 5,100 and 10,500 words this week. By 11/03.
Milk-to-Meat
I finished my Milk-to-Meat assignments tonight. I was three lessons behind. I normally do them on the Saturday before I go to class, but I haven't been doing them lately. I went to bed early one Saturday night and forgot to do it. Then, I kept forgetting to do them. I will be back on schedule this week. I have caught up. I don't plan on getting behind again. I can mark one more thing off of my goals list for this week.
10.27.2007
Today
Today, I feel... happy.
Today, I thought about... how much work I have done on my novel.
Today, I prayed... Thank You, Lord for my husband.
Today, I thought about... how much work I have done on my novel.
Today, I prayed... Thank You, Lord for my husband.
Lazy Today
This has been a very lazy and relaxing day for me. there was no stress, no turmoil, no rushing. It felt good. I slept later than I wanted to, but that was cool.
I wash a few loads of clothes. I detest washing clothes. It is one of the chores I hate more than anything. I would rather clean the toilet than wash dishes. I know I got issues. To me, washing clothes is a necessary evil.
Maybe one day, I will like washing clothes, not likely though.
Oops, I forgot to do my NaNo Icons site today. Oh well, no worries. I will do it later.
I wash a few loads of clothes. I detest washing clothes. It is one of the chores I hate more than anything. I would rather clean the toilet than wash dishes. I know I got issues. To me, washing clothes is a necessary evil.
Maybe one day, I will like washing clothes, not likely though.
Oops, I forgot to do my NaNo Icons site today. Oh well, no worries. I will do it later.
Good Day Today
My husband and I just hung out today. It felt good to just hang out with him. We went to Red Robin. That was fun. I had the Chili, Chili Cheeseburger. It was good. I didn't finish it, though.
10.26.2007
Today
Today, I feel... tired. I worked late last night participating in the Fall Festival at my school.
Today, I thought about... how crazy the weather has been.
Today, I prayed... Lord, let my husband make 95 or better on his final exams this weekend.
Today, I thought about... how crazy the weather has been.
Today, I prayed... Lord, let my husband make 95 or better on his final exams this weekend.
Tired
I am so very tired. My school had its Fall Festival last night. I decided to pick the activities that you had to dance in. I didn't stretch or anything before dancing. I am tired. I am so ready for the weekend. I am planning on chilling for most of Saturday. I have a whole week's worth of video tape to watch. I haven't watched anything this week. I even have to watch the shows that my husband watches. That is about 12 hours of TV. Oops, I forgot to add Sunday night in that equation, so that's a total of 14 hours of TV. WOW!
I fixed my NaNo Icon site last night. Everything is everything now. Yippee.
Have you ever had someone get on your nerves so that you wanted to tell them to go somewhere and sit down? That is how I am feeling right now. Oh, just relax, would you?
I get to leave work an hour early. Yea! I need to go to the post office today.
I fixed my NaNo Icon site last night. Everything is everything now. Yippee.
Have you ever had someone get on your nerves so that you wanted to tell them to go somewhere and sit down? That is how I am feeling right now. Oh, just relax, would you?
I get to leave work an hour early. Yea! I need to go to the post office today.
10.25.2007
Today
Today, I feel... flat out tired.
Today, I thought about... how crazy those kids were.
Today, I prayed... Lord, please don't let me hurt nobody today.
Today, I thought about... how crazy those kids were.
Today, I prayed... Lord, please don't let me hurt nobody today.
Crazy Day So Far
I have had a crazy day so far. When I walked into the door at work, I was told to go to a classroom that wasn't mine. I didn't know the students and I didn't know the teacher all that well. It was crazy to say the least.
I am about ready to catch a case up in here. This folks is crazy. That's all I can say right now for fear of reprisal.
I am about ready to catch a case up in here. This folks is crazy. That's all I can say right now for fear of reprisal.
10.24.2007
Today
Today, I feel... excited and tired
Today, I thought about... how crazy T-Mobile hotspot was acting.
Today, I prayed... Lord, don't let me throw this computer. :)
Today, I thought about... how crazy T-Mobile hotspot was acting.
Today, I prayed... Lord, don't let me throw this computer. :)
Trouble, More Trouble
Well, I am at Border's Bookstore. I tried to connect to T-Mobile, but I had so many issues. I had to shut down my computer and then reboot it. I got so frustrated. It finally got to working right.
I am still having trouble with BlogJet. I am so sick of that program. It has a feature where you can group post, but, the ignant program still ain't working. I wasted my money for nothing. One of these days, I am going to ask for a refund.
I have tried to find some help for my BlogJet Problem, but it ain't worked yet. Maybe if I downloaded and re-installed the software, it would work, but I don't know. I am just tired of it.
I am still having trouble with BlogJet. I am so sick of that program. It has a feature where you can group post, but, the ignant program still ain't working. I wasted my money for nothing. One of these days, I am going to ask for a refund.
I have tried to find some help for my BlogJet Problem, but it ain't worked yet. Maybe if I downloaded and re-installed the software, it would work, but I don't know. I am just tired of it.
10.23.2007
Today
Today, I feel... too happy. I finished my character sketches.
Today, I thought about... Jerry. It's his birthday.
Today, I prayed... Lord, blessed children all over the world.
Today, I thought about... Jerry. It's his birthday.
Today, I prayed... Lord, blessed children all over the world.
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